I’ve come to realise, how incredibly difficult it is to make good habits and how easy it is to succumb to bad ones. I want to become a better person. I want to build my character. I want to change. My mind keeps nudging me to get better. But when it is faced with tough decisions & urges of the body, the mental strength nudging me forward miraculously disappears. On the unconscious level the mind refuses to cooperate. Every time I do something I regret, I become more depressed and effort to change gets harder each time. I’ve come to realise that conscious mind is no match for the unconscious. You can’t be conscious all the time and that seems to be the problem.
Meditation increases your consciousness over time. So, I think it’s time to start practicing meditation regularly.